Living for Tomorrow

I still find struggle in getting through the day-to-day, coming to terms on living with CRPS. This week I met with someone from my insurance, because according to my current ability to complete activities of daily living (ADLs) I qualify for a caregiver. At 28 years old that is a hard pill to swallow. I…

Its OK to have a bad day.

Before I share this post I feel the need to say, I wrote this on August 11th 2018. I've debated on sharing this. As time has passed, I feel these are emotions I want to share. The purpose of my blog is to push myself when it comes to sharing my feelings, thoughts or emotions.…

Learning what Kindness really is.

I remember being 14 years old, and at my school we had what was called the "Mid-High", which consisted of the 8th and 9th graders. I was never the "Popular" girl in school, I was short, chubby, wore glasses and had crooked teeth; still do as a matter of fact. I've learned to love myself…

Better than a Dream

Being with him has been like being inside the mind of a romance novel Author or on a romance movie set. I'll never fail to remember the first day we met. He took my views on love, relationships and romance, and flipped every opinion I thought was dead set. He instantly became a man I would…

Depression Confession.

Stuck in this room I confess, consumed by the painful sound of silence, relentlessly making my heard pound like there's a hammer in my chest. No matter how I try I am surrounded by a mess. Hiding behind fake smiles, and a pretty dress praying you wont notice that I am depressed. Drenched in sweat…

The Battle Against My Enemy Within

When I was diagnosed with CRPS I thought, this must be a joke. The doctor gave me a moment, then next is what he spoke, He would do everything he could, to set my nerves at ease I never expected next I would learn, its also called the "Suicide Disease" It was as if time…

My First time Shopping in a Wheelchair

So its dangerously close to 7:00am, and no surprise here, I haven't gotten any sleep and to be honest I'm a bit of a wreck. Last night Nate and I went to the mall to do a bit of shopping, I am going to my cousin's bridal shower this weekend so I wanted to treat…

There is no Excuse for Abuse

Looking back, I thought I was so in love, maybe I wasn't in love, maybe I was just in love with the idea of love. There are a lot of things I look back at in regards to my marriage, things I wonder if I could have done differently, or better but in the end I have learned, I didn't choose for him to abuse me, I didn't ask for him to and even when I tried to "behave" as best as I could, it didn't stop. I have learned that it isn't my fault, even though I have difficulty accepting it at times. I know at the end of the day my decision to leave him was the right one, the safest option for me.

Finding Happiness

We each have our own self-identified definition of what happiness means and how to achieve it. For some of us we loose what happiness means for us, and eventually loose the ability to achieve it all together. We begin to believe that we don't even deserve to achieve it. We become complacent with living in…

Thoughtful Thursday: Living in Pain

Thoughtful Thursday: Living in Pain Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Not all pain can be seen that someone feels.        If you read my last blog, you will know that I have Complex Regional Pain Syndrome "CRPS"; I am in a constant pain about 95% of the time. The pain…